Being A True Friend Doesn't Mean That You Come Over Every Single Day

There are many things you can't buy, like happiness, and love. Yet those are the things we want the most. People, in general, though, want many things. I know that I'm like that, I want things too. But of what I can't buy, I wish I had more time.

Everybody expects something different of me. Mostly, though, it's the fact they want me there with them. Between school, gymnastics and whatever else I'm doing, I have little time left over. That time though, seems to be portioned. "Shannon are you free today?" or "Shannon can you come over today?". I have a hard time saying no to people, so I get caught up in these plans. I try to get out of it, but people always persist. So I give in and make them happy.

I'm tired of this though. I can't make everybody happy at once. By being at one place, I'm making somebody else unhappy. By trying to spend some time doing nothing, I'm making somebody unhappy. For leaving the house without telling anyone, I'm making somebody unhappy. For having time to myself, I'm making somebody unhappy.

Is that really too much to ask, having free time? Too much time together sometimes kills everything. If people left me alone, maybe I'd be more willing to do more.

I don't feel like I said what I really wanted to say with this. I don't know how to put it to words. But if anybody understands, please tell me.

-Mirikitani